It had been 330 DAYS, 47 WEEKS, 7920 HOURS, 475,200 MINUTES, and 2,851,200 SECONDS since I had seen you last....
Then all of a sudden that clock stopped and you were somewhere in the same room as me at the Dear John Premiere in Los Angeles. I did my best not to look for you and pretend like I didn't care you were there to my friends as I said hello to everyone I knew. I don't think they were buying it though, I know I wasn't. I didn't find you but I could feel you there....
I spent the next 100 MINUTES watching a movie that to me, is a montage of locations that all have some memory involving you...
The first TIME I saw you in your blue jeans with your big sunglasses on, the first TIME you smiled at me, or spoke to me with your adorable southern accent that you love to deny exists. The first TIME we had lunch together, laughed together, and eventually spent countless tortures HOURS pretending to not be together as we worked on set when all I wanted to do was grab you. I was watching a 40 story high stream of all of the places that I fell in love with you at...
I secretly planned to avoid this movie so I wouldn't have to relive those memories. Until I found out you were gonna be there from a friend...
I can't pinpoint the DAY, WEEK, or MINUTE, when we started losing touch.... I guess it just happens as the SECONDS continue to tick away out of our control...
There have been many DAYS and NIGHTS where I have thought about what I would say to you once I saw you. How I missed you and still thought of you often. How I wished that the TIMING had been better, and how important you were to me....
Instead, I acted like an asshole, was dismissive, and walked away because it was to much for me once we came face to face that night. For the next 2 HOURS my charade of not caring continued. Aided by some drinks, I mingled and talked to friends at the party, always knowing where you were, until I was standing across from you again and you were staring at me and I melted....
The majority of the conversation I don't wish to share except when you told me the only thing watching this movie makes you think of is me and its incredibly hard to do...
The remaining HOURS, MINUTES, and SECONDS we spent together that night and morning make me smile.
It had been 330 DAYS, 47 WEEKS, 7920 HOURS 475,200 MINUTES, and 28,51200 SECONDS and I didn't feel any different....
You took off for home this afternoon and I hope there will be another DAY, WEEK, HOUR, or even SECOND when I will be able to see you and touch you again.
Until then I'm going to Carolina in My Mind....
Yo my friend this is beautiful!! For all that don't know brett, I know him well and he's not the type to let down the wall and let people know how he's really feeling always... well hardly ever. This is special and exactly what were trying to do here. Good stuff man!! Scream it over the ether and let her know you love her. I'm proud of you. chan
Well said. I second the above.
wow. That's incredible. i love the passion. You should tell her! Love, after all, is about taking chances.
It is so nice to hear a guy say these things.. it was so meaningful I loved it. I hope you see her again so soon :)
Wow...I never read something with so much heartache. you really need to tell her this.
I love how love can't be changed by time. Thank you Brett for sharing your story, it's very touching. I agree with Gordy, you still obviously lover her and you will continue to love her so isn't it better that she really knows how you truly feel?
This was one of the first posts I read as I signed on and I was SO IMPRESSED. First, by your impeccable writing skills...but besides that I was impressed by your ability to write your feelings down and have no fear of what COMPLETE strangers would think of your emotions to be that open, makes me smile...
As for your situation maybe time will allow you guys another chance, so I hope you will forward that story, but chances are she already read it.
Simply beautiful!
WOW!!! This is so beautiful!! I hope "the girl from Carolina " reads it, and I hope she knows how lucky she is!!!
awww that's super super sweet! Man, You should express how you feel to this girl, if she's a really great girl. You wouldn't want to miss out on something special. Thanks for sharing a piece of your heart with us! =)
Strength and prayers to you, Brett. This is beautiful. If she means that much to you, you should let her know. We're all behind you on this. You deserve to be happy, and so does she. And I bet you could be the one to make her happy. God Bless, Brettt. =)
Excellent way to describe time and distance thats separates you. Even when you are right next to them your guard is up afraid that they will see how much you really care. I say this becasue I have the same experience..and every time I wish had another chance. so THANKS FOR SHARING THIS!!
oh Brett, you just made my heart hurt..i'm proud of u though. I'm proud of u honoring your true feelings...your whole life will change when you open up....
this was amazing
totally breath taking
thank you so much for putting this up though it might have been difficult for you!
you are a great writer
dude ... you should like be a writer or something.
well done.
Amazing...simply beautiful. Tell her how you feel.
This is such a beautiful story, I had to read it again!
~ I love this ♥
Pushing yourself to open up is a beautiful thing. I think keeping your feelings hidden, is as heart-wrenching as putting yourself out there and being disappointed. We have to take the chance and keep moving forward, growing with each experience. Thank you for sharing your story. I wish you the best in whatever your future holds. Just remember, each love prepares you for the next. ♥
This is an amazing piece to read. So emotional for me to read. You put tears in my eyes. Thank you so much for sharing.
that was beautiful
Wow, so beautiful!!! I'm sending all my Love Angels to you xoxo
wow. this gave me goose bumps.
beautifully written. best of luck to you.
my advise would be go out and get her!
<3
I really appreciate all the kind comments. really didn't expect this many. Thank you :)
I do believe that's what they call pouring your heart out, sounds like once you started the words came so easily.Nice work.x
wow that was amazing
wow. i dont even know what else to say.
i second channing; this was extremely beautiful//deep//meaningful//powerfull; honestly speechless almost; i love how you express yourself (:
I am sure you didn't expect it but Im sure if this girl knew exactly how you felt - things would be different. That was beautiful and I come back to read it a few times a day...kind of stalkerish? lol It's just nice ...really nice
Wow, this is beautiful.. Never actually thought so much love and concern could go through a man's mind.. & it's even more amazing how you're not afraid to express it so freely.. It's nice to know guys also get butterflies when we walk in the room..
wow this is amazing. it made me cry. i know its not the same but i am in a long distance relationship and the seconds, minutes and days seem so ridiculously long and horrible without that person by your side.
this is definitely one of the most beautiful things i read.
I'm so sorry I didn't see this when it was first posted but i am so glad I saw it now it is so very touching and it really does touch my heart because I have felt the same way this is Absolutely breath taking Thank You :)
this is one of the most beautiful things i have ever read.
Im with everyone else on this.
i hope it works out the way you want it to.
she'd be one lucky lady it seems
eloquent.
Hi Brett I have no idea who you are but you are a romantic at heart which is great!!!!! You need to follow your heart and let the rest fall into place, rejection is hard if that is what is stopping you but if the girl knows what is in your heart I dont think she would turn away and if she does then she shouldnt have you!!!!
dude great passion. thats awesome!!!:)(:
Love is all about taking chances... and i hope it works out for you! .. this is beautiful <3
You portray an emotion in that post that a lot of people can relate to it seems. Anyone who's experienced love and a broken heart. Thats why you've moved everyone who reads it including me! Its bold and beautiful :) Youve made me appreciate what I have on this Vday morning. My love goes out to you
This is so beautiful and touching to my very soul.
what you said was amazing.. i hope that girl in carolina knows how you truly feel.. and i hope she feels the exact same way. i wish you the absolute best..and i hope yall get to see each other soon!
You'll only have regrets later if you don't put yourself out there and let her know how you really feel. I wish you the best and hope you go for it!!
So since I've last read this I am wondering if you have gotten to talk to her? I know it's probably none of my business but I am dying to know.. I really hope this works out for you Brett :)
Seriously one of the most beautiful posts on here.
So impressive.
Go get her.
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Everything happens for a reason and there's a reason why you can't shake her...
beautiful.......i hope you can find a way to be with the one you so clearly love
powerful stuff man. =)
Thanks again for all the comments. Didn't work out but she did see it. Glad I shared either way.
fyi
this is my new typepad account. deleted the twitter so that made it impossible to post on here. Not sure if I'm going to post again, I guess if I have something else to say I will. Ttyl. xx
I know it's a year late but I love how a man opens up like this...its beautiful Brett.
Sorry it didn't work out but there must be something greater our there for you...life's full of surprises.